Matthew:  After almost 6 months a temp agency finally scheduled an interview with him for tomorrow morning (let’s hope there’s a job along with it).

I will probably be losing mine tomorrow but not certain yet.

When will the job trial end for us?  Obviously we haven’t passed what we need to learn from this one yet or we would be on a different trial not related to financial employment issues.  I definitely have faith that Heavenly Father will pull us through and eventually out of this situation…

So many things have happened since I last wrote so I will give a family update…

Matthew is still unemployed (4 months now) but is still receiving unemployment benefits.  He has been networking with a lot of people but there just isn’t any jobs here for him to even get help to apply.  It’s terrible right now.  Our mortgage company is working with us so we don’t go into foreclosure processing.  I’m grateful for that.

I’m still receiving medical assistance from the state as well as food stamps.  I’m still working in a group home caring for 2 adults with mental and physical disabilities.  I just enrolled in school which my class starts January 4th.  I will be completing a 9 month program to be a medical assistant which will actually change my current job to working in a doctor’s office.  I am so excited I can hardly wait.  The program has the following subjects: Anatomy, Physiology, Terminology, Computer basics, Math fundamentals, CPR, First Aid, Office Management, Insurance and coding, Business writing, Exam techniques, Clinical, Surgical procedures, Pharmacology, Medical law and ethics, Medical office laboratory procedures, Medical specialty procedures, communication and then 5 weeks of an externship with job placement.  I will be learning a lot but I am so excited about it…

Kayla is in 6th grade and is in Middle School/Junior High.  She loves it and has many friend’s.  She has one best friend that she hangs out with a lot and she tends not to do what she’s supposed to and gets grounded from time to time.  She’s 11 and going into the teenage mood swings so it has been very interesting lately with that.  She is very helpful around the house so that’s good.  Total teenage behavior hasn’t hit yet (thank goodness).

Sydney is in Kindergarten and she loves it.  She has an amazing teacher and lots of friend’s.  She has a very outgoing personality and likes to talk ALL the time.  I have no idea where she got that from (LOL).  Sydney turns 6 in a few weeks but she has way too much knowledge for a 6 year old.  Her spirit must be old since she is amazingly smart.  Kayla is too.

Matthew and I are primary teachers – We teach the CTR 5 class and that’s been a lot of fun.  We were placed in this calling a few months ago after being building librarians for 4 years.  Kayla goes into young woman’s next August and Sydney goes to CTR 6 in January.  We just found out that in January we will begin teaching the Sunbeams.  (YIKES!!)  That should be a lot of fun in actuality…

The Lord has placed so many people in our path that have helped us so much it’s been amazing.  I have been so blessed and humbled by this entire experience these last 4 months.  I am the one that’s usually humble about all things but this has made it even more of a humbling adventure.  Kayla and Sydney have been so wonderful with our situation too.  They haven’t asked for much and they try to do all they can to help.  Everyone has us in there prayers and it has reflected so much in our home through our family, friends and even in the community through Kayla and Sydney’s school.  We have truly appreciated everyone’s help, prayers and support.

I have noticed how much distractions have taken over my life.  I have done less lately than ever before and it’s disturbing me.  I am behind in my visiting teaching, I sleep way too much, I find myself praying less and reading my scriptures, I don’t spend a lot of time with Matthew or my kids, I get very overwhelmed too easily and the list goes on and on… Satan has me in his grasp right now and that’s frightening.  I need to get rid of all this chaos/distraction in my life immediately.  It’s all I can do to stay above water.  My distractions come from the computer, lack of medications and trying to do too much at once.

~ Computer is getting a lot better now since I use the computer for better uses.  I read my scriptures online through the listening feature, I read articles on the LDS website and cut my other applications I use to a smaller time throughout the day.

~ Medication issues are finally resolved and I’m noticing a huge improvement already now that I am back on track with taking them now.  My diabetes is still way off but I’m managing it at least.

~ All other distractions, well…  I’m not sure about that but I know I have the Lord on my side guiding and directing me and i just have to turn myself over to Him and let go of the silliness chaos brings.  My life just got way out of control when change happened with Matthew’s job.  I don’t do too well with change and I know no one ever really likes it I’m making it work the best I can.  It’s just all too much at once I’m afraid and that’s what bothers me because life is too short and I need to stay on track.

I just have to keep the basic church goals in my life and it should work itself out.  That’s easier said than done sometimes…

I have bad luck tonight…  I get home from work and I hit my head on the trunk door of my car as the hatch closes.  Then I step on a box in the dark and fell into my closet head first.  Then run right into the vacuum cleaner and stubbed my toe.  Then go get a drink from the fridge and get an electric shock from static electricity on the handle.  And finally I almost hit my head again on a kitchen cabinet.  What a night huh?

I just tripped over the vacuum cleaner AGAIN!! What is the matter with me?  LOL

I’m on the APIPA plan on AHCCCS and I went to get my insulin today at Walgreen’s and they tell me my insurance will not cover my insulin.  I have no insulin right now and have no idea how I’m going to get it.  To top it all off they didn’t authorize any of my other prescriptions either and the customer service line was closed.  I am so frustrated with this whole issue I could literally have a stress related fit.  This isn’t something that can just go a few days and hope someone will answer the phone and get you what you need to know about this issue.  My insulin is a dire life existence medication.  I guess they will do something when I’m in the hospital with some reaction of having no insulin for who knows how long at this point!!!  I have NO IDEA what they are thinking…  I really hope this gets straightened out later on today when the customer service lines are opened…

*** The phone call:

So I called the insurance company and they told me my doctor has to call a special phone number to authorize my medication.  They gave me the phone number so that was good.  I call my doctor’s office even though I knew my doctor was out of town on a conference until Monday.  Answering service has him call me back.  Doctor has nothing to write information down so he can’t help me.  Thank goodness I have an endocrinologist.  I call his office and they are out to lunch until 1:30pm.  I have to wait again for just the authorization.  I then still need to go pick the insulin up so I have been without insulin since last night and I am definitely feeling the loss of it.  My blood sugar is at an extreme level right now as it is…  (Stupid insurance).  The positive side is that we have insurance, it’s going to be authorized and that’s all that matters.  Frustrating still the least.